We admired this perfect, tall flame from Ella’s candle on her birthday while we baked in the kitchen. Yes… a rose pink candle. Always, for her.
I hadn’t even thought of this story for more than a fleeting moment in the past year or so. I thought that by now, everyone who wanted to find it would probably have found it.
But then I was reminded by an email that came in unexpectedly to my inbox. And then I remembered yet again what I keep forgetting. It’s so simple, the premise of the story, but apparently it’s not second nature.
I was handed this story on the day we held Ella’s memorial by the person who wrote it. Someone who had not laid eyes on her in life but, I feel strongly, had a very sound and creative knowledge of what might have transpired.
How special the story is. How IMPORTANT the message is. How very, very much it aligns itself with how I too saw Ella. Of course it’s fantastical. It is an adult fairytale, if you like, so that is how it reads. But my gosh… and you’ll just have to go with me (believe me) on this, I know… how many touches of reality are in it are simply a gift I cannot express enough here.
Will you read it? If you’ve read it, will you read it again?
Wow, I’m speechless. I hadn’t read that before. What a beautiful story of such a precious little girl. I can only imagine what it meant to you both when you first read it.
Thank you for sharing it, and for sharing your feelings at this time of year. x Kate
I love that it was a pink one.
What a beautiful photo that is. Such a strong, but somehow graceful flame. Sounds about right, really.
@Kate, it is still a profound read for Steve and myself. Whenever we try to read it out loud, we’re reduced to barely audible whispers because the tears start flooding right from the first paragraph!
But it’s such a good, cleansing cry.
Wow! If you could find an artist (maybe water colours)… what an amazing book that would be!
I think it would be so comforting to a family if they’ve lost a little one.
That is just beautiful!!!
It took me a very very long time to read that. Lots of tear breaks!
“We’ve loved each other for too long to say goodbye forever.”
is the bit that really really got me.
I also clicked over to see pics of Ella, I’ve not looked at her pic pages in a long time. Makes *me* wonder “what if”, I can’t imagine how it is for you, every day, when you see Lolly.
It is by far, hands-down, the one piece of writing that allows my tears to flow, over and over and over down the same tracks. A constant flow. It’s a hard read. But ultimately, for me at least, so very fulfilling.
Thank you K for your words.
Beautiful. Love to you all xxx