This year, the LGBB is that much more aware of our emotions. Of reading our faces. Of knowing what tears and drawn faces mean.
I don’t want to tell her why her Dad will be home from work with us next Tuesday. But we will. Together, Steve and I will probably try to explain it’s the birthday of a little girl who never reached the age to even blow out just one candle.
It’s hit me with a thud today. My heart is heavy in my chest and feels like a rock against my back. I went out for a few supplies before and walked out of the shops fighting back tears. By the time I reached the car, they were spilling down my face. This is usual. Typical now of life without a child here. I feel like I’m used to it now, this far along. But while it’s familiar, it’s still sad.
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It sucks the big one. Thinking of you.
Oh gosh. I don’t know what to say. I’ve read that post a long while ago but your photos really hit home tonight. I’ll be thinking of you all next Tuesday. I keep writing and deleting my comment…so I’m just going to hit submit now, k?
I hadn’t seen those photos before, K. They’re honestly beautiful.
That second one, with your hand on her head. It’s so tender, so loving. I look at it and I can feel you loving her, nurturing her in any way you can, connecting with little Ella.
Beautiful, my friend. Honestly. They’re amazing. Thanks for linking us to them, I feel priveleged to have seen them.
my dear friend. Thank you for linking to that post. Though i haveseen them before I feel as though I am seeing them with new eyes. Have been and will continue to hold you in my heart.
I can’t believe another year has gone by. Man, 5 years when it must seem like yesterday and a world away all in one.
I don’t envy you having to explain this to the LGBB but I do know you guys will get it right.
Because of you and Steve, Lolly will share a special connection with her big sister always.
As always I will be thinking of you on Tuesday.
“Because of you and Steve, Lolly will share a special connection with her big sister always.”
This is exactly what I wanted to write.
Thinking of you all, always.
My throat aches and eyes fill whenever you talk of Ella, and I love to hear you talk of her.
Thank you for the link to your most precious photos. The first two are images that will stay in my heart forever. Your beautiful daughter.
She’s just so beautiful.
Thank you for sharing her story & her wisdom & grace with us.
xx Ave
She is just so gorgeous. I’ve seen those pics before too but I still have tears trickling now when I look at them. Too too beautiful.
Thinking of you lots this week hun.
Al xxx
Thining of you sweet, no words I’m afraid, still raw for me too 5 years on, cried myself to sleep on Piper’s birthdate
hugs xx
Your tender and loving words mean very much to a heart-sore mummy.
Heartfelt thank you’s. From all of us xxx